rants…

tml is hydrodynamics paper.
i was so depressed that i bought a ice cream cone from mac to perk myself up.
(i look so unprepared compared to the rest of them.. =( )
end up sneaking up the bus with the ice cream. =P

sometimes it’s fun to do such stuff.
make ur heart beat faster a little. and it feels better. hahahaha…

had a short chat with uncle robson on our way back.
topic is obviously not abt our paper tml.
(so boring.. who will want to talk abt it? )
hahaha… we talked a bit abt how gers like to use exams as an excuse to ignore ppl.
aiya.. it’s not making use of the exams lah.
but then it’s a good excuse wad.
unless u say u like ppl to keep calling u for nothing. =P

then i was saying uncle robson is too picky.
and he rebutted till i nothing to say.
hahaha.. recently i’ve been losing in all the debating chat.
and kept getting suan too!
hmpf! why like that? *act innocent like yix*

no idea wat’s the purpose of this post.
just want to type something for fun.

suddenly money popped into my head.
muz be all the talk with uncle robson abt how
we have to earn every cents on our own.
so cannot anyhow spend.
but i really want to go shopping.
to be more precise, window shop.
i’ve been cooped up in my ‘little world’ too long.
it’s unhealthy u know.
and there’s all those movies i want to watch!

who can be a kind soul and accompany me?

*off to read up the photocopied stuff then sleep*
=)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

再见十九岁的回忆

http://song80s.blogspot.com/
偶然之下找到它。
里面有好多好多我以前听过的‘老歌’

在午后边读书边听着里面的歌
回忆就这样飘来。

听这些歌的时候，我当然还没十九岁。
应该还很小，刚上幼稚园吧。
那时的我会乖乖地坐在妈妈身旁，
听着收音机播的歌，看着妈妈做衣服。

小时候真的很无忧。
好怀恋那个时光。
好希望妈妈不要变老。
而我就一直是那个依偎在妈妈身旁的小女孩。

去听听里面的一首歌吧。
歌名：我的小妹

对它印象特别深刻，因为妈妈以前常常会跟着收音机唱给我听。

Rain

i love raining days.

it’s almost psychotic to think this way.
but today’s heavy pour finally give me the feeling that i’m having exams.

well, for the past 3 exams which i have during december,
none is not without rain.
i even remember that i had to wrap myself with the blanket while studying inside my room.

today’s rain came at the right time.
it’s a pity i cant go down and stand in the rain.
can’t get sick during this period.

but it’s amazing watching the window view.
i like the feeling that it gives.
like i’m almost overseas. in some faraway places.

i wanted to blog abt the fantastic day i had on monday.
but i cant seem to edit the photos.
will make up for it when i’m done with the papers instead.

anyway, i was thinking.
if some experience u hope to be good turn out not so good,
then keep trying.
it will definitely turn out well.
probably too optimisstic.
but it’s what i believed.

quoting from the enchanted movie:
(if i can still remember correctly.)
are you willing to give up all of your wonderful memories
just because of some bad ones?
NO!

i agree.
i think i’m probably a hopeless romantic hidden behind the practicalist me.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo
more and more. cant wait to play the game.

CRAP

was chatting with a fren about smoking thru essays.
i used to do that really well, till dunno when, i decide to be really honest and forget how to smoke thru papers.
(ok, that’s not the truth. i just din know enough to smoke thru papers anymore.)

but anyway, talking abt smoking.
i smell that from my brother yesterday.
not suggesting that he smokes, since he’s surrounded by smokers everyday.
just want to talk abt the smell thingy.
well, i think i’m attracted to unique smell. (of coz not any rubbish shitty smell.)
honestly, i dun think the leftover scent from smoking is smelly.
(but the fact is that i DO dislike the strong smoky smell when ppl are in the process of smoking.
basically it means i dun like the process, but i dun mind the after effect.)
in fact i quite like it. (weird i know…)
but i also like the scent from men’s perfume.
i like those sweet women’s perfume too. (but i dun use perfume.)
so the conclusion is just that i like special smell.
and i pay special attention to ppl with special scent that appeal to me.
(but point to note too, is that: i’m dun have a very sensitive nose.)
and i have a really bad habit too. once i catch that special smell, i’ll try to keep it.
it’s kind of like an addiction.
so if it’s someone close, i’ll just start sniffing. (hahaha… scary isnt it. but i try to do it in a subtle way lah..)
i dunno wat’s the point of me typing all this crap. but it’s just interesting to type crappy stuff.

anyway, on the way to sch i saw a car with an family inside while i’m in the process of arranging my notes. (wat am i talking abt? it’s crap.)
but suddenly i felt envious. (ok, that’s one of the 7 sins rite? envy.)
it feels good to have a family of ur own isnt it?
makes me wonder how it feels to have ur own children.
my mom just told me today that she nv feel like lazing on the bed every morning. (unlike me who, if there’s no need to, will just laze on bed for hrs.)
and the reason my mom gave was: we are her motivation. (we = my brother and me)
interesting answer.
i knew i cant be a full time housewife. (i need to work! i’m quite a workaholic if it’s something that i like.)
so how will i juggle between the two next time?
i hope i’ll be able to do well in both.

now is really not the time to be thinking abt this isnt it?
hahaha.. it’s the exam period!
but the journey to sch is always a good time to relax and let my mind wonder.
and basically i blog them out just becoz it’s too late to study and i feel like crapping but no one to talk to.
cant bother the rest who are having exams. cant bother those who are offline.
so i talk to myself here.
great way to do self conversation.
not much thinking involve.
just total bullshitting.

i love crapping to my own head.

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo

my head doesnt work. (i think)

exam period now, so doesnt really feel like figuring out words from hanyu pinyin.
will revert back to chinese when i’m more free..
(which means another 1wk plus.)

summary of wat i did recently:
- 1 1/2 past yr paper. (first time in my life to attempt papers without first finish studying the notes)
- watched House. trying to make up for those episodes i missed on SCV. (House is really a nice show. but no thanks to tadpole who told me it’s available on tudou.)
- eat (a lot)

nothing very constructive. but at least i made some progress in studying.
many thanks to the guys in struc lab for stressing me. really.. (if not i’ll probably not have started.)

anyway, i’ve come to the conclusion that gers do like sweet talks.
but every person’s frequency for sweet talks are different.
the same ‘Hz’ appeal to some but irritate some.
shld i count myself lucky to ‘experience’ both?

but anyway, coming to the next point,
i do not feel i’m responsible towards anyone to not to disappoint him or her.
not even my parents expect that much from me.
who are u to me to expect that?
shld i kiss ur ass or wad? be a suck up?
(sorry i’m rather jumpy recently, and not in the mood to entertain.
but in other words, the reason why i dun feel like entertaining u is becoz i dun want to.
in simplier terms, u’re a nobody.)

i know robson dun like me to type the last line, but i just want to.
whether it boost someone’s ego or wad, doesnt really matter.
wat really matter is wad i want to do isnt it?
go ahead.. scold me. i’m a completely stubborn stupid idiot.
(even i agree with it.)

i dunno why, i’m perfectly happy. but wat i type just turn out to be nasty.
does this show that people shld believe more in action and not words?
i’m confused by my own behaviour.

life isnt always a bed of roses. (it’s probably true.)

and i think i probably watch too much House. (thus being so cynical?)

P.S. ajeossi, boposshoyo